Tears started running down my face…
You see, for the past few months, I have been working with a nutrition coach and we have been dialing into my body. What works for me. Not a diet. Not a protocol. But testing Whole Foods. Observing how my body responds.
Well, in this particular session, we realized based on this past week, I need to start every 2-3 hours.
And the tears started.
All of a sudden, I was a kid again being questioned why I was hungry. I was a young adult who was overweight getting teased at work for needing to eat.
“Oh yeah, right. Your blood sugar is dropping.”
“We just ate. Why are you hungry again?”
When you have battled weight most of your life from developing PCOS and Insulin Resistance as a child, you feel like you don’t have a defense. It’s like you need to be a certain size to deserve to eat.
It’s like you need to be a certain size to deserve to eat.
I observed in childhood the only people who were praised for eating were those with a “high metabolism.” It was ok for them to eat. But not the chubby girl who went through puberty way too early and who had unknown insulin resistance and PCOS.
So, I cried. I released the stories, the emotions and energy as my coach held space and cried with me because she understands. Our bodies are very similar which is why I selected her to work with me. She gets it.
We made a plan after I stopped crying.
Plans feel good. They are safe.
I took my next step of health to a new level by giving myself permission to do what I need to do to be healthy, regardless of what others think.
I gave myself permission to do what I need to do to be healthy.
Friend, I ask you this:
What beliefs, triggers, memories have you been holding on to?
Is it time to release them.
Have you given yourself permission to honor your body and give it what it needs?
I can say that as I released these energies, and began to feel lighter, I became more and more excited….excited, content and holding on to the belief that there is nothing wrong with me and I’m worthy.
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